I thought I would post an update so you aren't all left hanging after my stories from earlier today.
I just got off the phone with the surgeon, and here are the possibilities regarding the calcifications: 1) totally benign and just happened to change during chemo 2) cancer - if it is cancer it was probably there all along and just got missed due to the dense tissue. Which sounds much better than having some kind of super-cancer that feeds on chemotherapy. He noted that there were those other spots on the MRI that looked suspicious even though we weren't able to find anything with the ultrasound. My choices now are: 1) have a mastectomy and be done with it, 2)have these spots biopsied to see what is going on before deciding. If they are benign I could still have the lumpectomy, if not or they are still looking suspicious then we can still do the mastectomy. If they can get the biopsy scheduled this week I could still stick to the original surgery date of March 30.
I decided that I really want to know more before making this call. Mastectomy and reconstruction means two real surgeries, and lumpectomy would be much easier. Plus I can't stop thinking that I would have regrets about lopping off body parts if I found out these areas were benign after it is too late. So, I asked for the biopsy and now am waiting for the call to see if they can fit me in this week. With my luck I'll have to go buy another sports bra for a biopsy tomorrow (since the other ones are at home) and then have to have a mastectomy and never need it again - ha! Note to readers: I have always found that things you predict out loud don't come true - that's why I wrote that.
Hey Donna...I haven't checked in for a while and I see I've been missing some major developments. Hope you are holding up okay and so glad that you are continuing to make thoughtful and well informed decisions. You rock girl! Thinking about you and wishing you lots of sports bra wearin'!! xoxo ~L (and puppy kisses from Tilly!)
ReplyDeleteWow, that's a roller coaster all right.. Might as well have a dose of surreal weather on top of the whole surreal experience! Hope this works out well for you.. We are following along closely and sending you lots of love and good thoughts.
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Hey Donna was out drinking with your mother and she mentioned you were thinking of giving up counting fish and trying out for the weather girl opening for the Weather Channel. Something about how the New England weather has been following you around in Fargo…. Well send it East, I miss it, and I’m worried I’ll be over exposed to all the sunshine and warm temps that are here every day. (Did I mention we have been drinking) On a more serious note if you do have an extra sports bra I hate to see it just hanging around so could you ship it home? Bill and I will put it to good use. Seems the shotgun recoil is starting to get to be a little much lately when we shoot at all the tourists and I was thinking….. since I shoot lefty and Bills a righty I could cut the thing in half and make a couple of recoil pads. If the black one is available it might look a little manlier and I can tell him I got a deal from the local Air Force store. (It’s really an Army store but he would never wear it if he knew that….Pilots!) Please send “IT” in a brown unmarked package and include enough postage as not to embarrass me with my UPS driver. He thinks I’m weird enough with all the strange shapes that show up at my door. The guy ought to look up Cabela's and see it’s not what he thinks! I wish I could help with postage but Bill says someday I’ll be on a fixed income and I better be ready. I thought fixed was something you did to the cat and as a former boy scout I got the ready thing covered. Hope you find a little humor in life and know with the family and friends you got things will turn out just fine…..but it sure is a pain in the ……getting to fine. DW
ReplyDeleteJust for the record, I have no idea who this Dennis is, never mind why he's collecting sports bras. When was i out drinking with him? I don't remember it.
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